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Money. Money. Money. I hear a lot of talk about it from my clients.

 

The funny thing is it’s never about the money; there is always something else lurking in the shadows.

 

Don’t get me wrong; I know money is essential to live. I grew up in a working class neighborhood and attended school in the inner city of Philadelphia; everyday I got glimpses of what life is like without money.

 

But for the majority of us who aren’t in that situation, money is an obstacle we feel we have to overcome in order to get what we want.

 

Have you ever said this: “if only I had the money I could” or “I can’t do that because I don’t have the money”?

 

Sure you have, we’ve all felt that way at one point or another.


It’s when you get stuck in that language and don’t create any forward movement that you know its part of something larger. It’s part of a belief that you have that has a foundation in something you experienced that evoked a certain emotion. It was an uncomfortable emotion, something like fear, anger, or anxiety. In order to keep yourself safe from that feeling you created a belief that protected you from the discomfort it would take to challenge that idea.

 

In order to avoid the discomfort you have to avoid the underlying emotion you are really feeling. And let’s face it, after a long day of work, it’s tiring to ask yourself what really lies in the discomfort. This is especially true if you’re at a job you don’t like or are suffering from physical pain or mental stress.

 

So here’s something that is simple and works in the moment wherever you are.

 

Ask yourself: When you think about money where do you feel it in your body? What does it feel like?

 

When I first ask my clients this they often associate money with an uncomfortable feeling in their body. This is not surprising considering so many of us hold money as the key to our happiness. And if we’re not happy we think it’s because of something we don’t have.

 

Interestingly the more you open yourself up to your feelings towards money the more you can see where it is blocking you. Or more importantly where you are blocking yourself.

 

Try it for a week and see if that tightness loosens up. You may feel slightly less discomfort each time you face it.

 

In part 2 of Money on the Mind, I’ll share with you how not being clear on your money vibe will make you still feel stuck even when the money is there and obstacles no longer exist.

I was tempted to name this “attack of the killer bees”.  Then I thought that might be too dramatic.  As a child when there were bees buzzing around it did feel like attack of the killer bees. Feeling threatened I would always swat or do some other kind of frantic movement that just left me with not one, but usually many bee stings.

 

I felt threatened so I went into self-protection mode. The problem was my reaction intensified their reaction and the end result was never in my favor. I love metaphors so instantly I began to think of the way my brain works. How I used to (and still do at times) get caught up in a mind mess so heavy it does feel like bees buzzing around my head.

 

Then I read a short piece about a book called “ The Tibetan Book of Living and Dying” where the author Soygal Rinpoche compares the monkey mind to a beehive.

 

A ha! It came quite quickly and suddenly to me just the other day. If I start imagining and hearing the beehive when my thoughts are all bunched up it gives me perfect practice to flip my focus. Can you tell I’m a visual type of gal?

 

Think about it, bees are always buzzing and swarming around the hive. Much like our thoughts (usually the worry and anxiety filled ones) are constantly chattering away in our minds.  If we react frantically by swatting at them or moving our bodies too much, they attack.

 

I realized as I matured into an adult that I still followed the same reactive mode of self-protection.  When I began doing self-work and recognized my monkey mind and the havoc it was creating in my life I went full force after it. I tried everything: suppressing it, analyzing it, and even arguing with it. But I found that these efforts only intensified its existence. Then when I tried to flip my focus to something completely different it came right back like a magnet.

 

It was not until I imagined those thoughts as a beehive that I started to be able to separate myself from them.  As soon as I heard the buzzing I did what I should have done as a child: I stepped back.  I acknowledged them but they no longer pushed me along and I was no longer reactive to them. When you realize they will always be there and get comfortable with that, they can’t stand in your way.

 

If you find yourself obsessing over your health, your career or anything else imagine the beehive. What’s the smartest thing to do? Step back and flip your focus away from the thought of being stung. The bees may still be there but they won’t be the focus of our energy.

 

If you find yourself stuck in a mind mess try visualizing the beehive or any other image that helps you flip your focus from the chatter.

 

I feel better every time I use this tool. It helps me stop the mind chatter and calm my body down. It also helps me slow down. I realize I have more than enough time and there will always be something sweet waiting for me, so there’s no need to swarm myself with self criticism and doubt.

 

Try it! I’d love to hear what you come up with…

 

“And the day came when the risk to remain tight in the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.”  Anais Nin

 

I realized recently that I was still carrying a piece of that in the bud person with in me. Though I have made huge strides over the last few years there was still the part of me who wanted to hide in the shadow. Avoid discomfort, conflict, or just plain speaking my mind.

 

The thing about that little bud, that “little part of me”, that I was carrying inside was that sometimes I relied on it too much. I used it as a way to hide, to step back, and to not let my feelings be heard. By not allowing myself to do all of those things I was not protecting myself.

 

And the cycle of not protecting myself had really bad consequences for my self-esteem. And for my body.

 

You see when I was not protecting myself and standing up for myself my body was feeling the effects. It was feelings the effects of the wave of emotions that came up while my mind was pushing it logically away. My stomach was in an uproar and my body was feeling anxious because I was not following my natural instinct to protect myself.

 

This came to light recently when I realized a website was posting personal information about my business and myself. This information had been supplied on a form I had filled out years ago and the company it was affiliated with no longer existed. However this website posted the information as a way to promote itself. It’s a search engine thing that I won’t even bother getting into.

 

Needless to say when I saw the site I had a full range of emotions from anger to fear. I felt violated. I felt victimized. I felt I had no control over who can see my personal information. I felt scared and started creating all kinds of doomsday scenarios.

 

Then I did what a lot of us women do: I talked to my husband about it. We located a contact number for the site and my husband suggested I call the next day. My immediate response was: you do it. Why did I say this? That was my hide “little me” talking. My alter ego who wanted to avoid conflict at all costs even if that meant victimizing myself in the process. I wanted someone else to do the protecting for me.

 

It feels weird to even write that since on a daily basis I view myself as an extremely forward thinking, very independent women who doesn’t like to be told what to do.  But I let myself give the power to him in the moment and said to myself “I’ll sleep on it”.

 

The next morning without even a minute of thought I realized I had to make the call.  I needed to make the call. This was about my safety, I had to give myself the power back and believe that I could handle it. I had to protect myself. Of course the person did not answer but I left a very clear and detailed message listing the fact that the information was no longer valid and my concerns about my personal safety. I did not ask for the information to be removed, I TOLD him to remove the information and call me when it was done.

 

Well I never received a call, but within 24 hours my profile on the site was removed. When I looked at the site and realized this I was surprised at how easy it had been. How I had wanted to avoid sticking up for myself. How there was still a part of me that wanted to hide and didn’t fully believe in me.

 

The thing is that the more you do for yourself the more the real you shows up. And the more that happens the less the “little” comes forward. Why? Because they know they are safe.

 

I am sharing this with you because I want you to know that now matter how much self “work” you do with yourself, there will always be these “imperfect”, vulnerable parts of you that resurface. And that’s okay. They are here for you to learn from and grow from. Just listen and you’ll know exactly what to do with them.